Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.Matthew 6:34
Several times I have been asked “How are you doing Cindy?” I want to give the right response by saying, “I am doing good, God’s got this, and I know he is in complete control.” Although I do know that in my head, my heart wants to cry out and say, “I hurt. I ache. I feel alone and lost.”
We’ve endured a lot of hardships in our lives. But finally things were looking good for a change. We had plans, we had dreams for the rest of our future. In December Jon had a full hip replacement. We were looking forward to doing things together we had not been able to do for years. Financially we were finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. But then, those words came in the doctor’s office, “I believe you have ALS…….about three years”. I think my whole body went numb at that point. I kept waiting to hear her follow up with a “but”. It never came. Just an, “I’m sorry.”
On January 30th, 2019 the course of our lives changed forever. Nothing I do anymore is the same. It is tainted with thoughts of the future. I have to trust that my God has a plan, that he knows what he is doing. Jeremiah 29:11 says, ” For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” All I can do is cling to and trust those words from my Heavenly Father. To find a way through all this pain to grasp them and believe them like never before. I love this song by Selah, listen and let whatever pain you have be absorbed by the Father and may you find your trust in Him.