(Written Wednesday night) Tonight as I sit here in the hospital room, watching my sleeping husband, so many emotions and thoughts fill my mind.
Grateful is one of those thoughts. Grateful to all of you who covered us in prayer today, grateful to those of you who daily lift us up to the Father, grateful to those of you who reach out and check in on us, and grateful to those of you who have helped us financially. As I stood over Jon tonight and prayed, I asked God to bless you. That He would rain blessings over each and every one of you. The praying army of God is so powerful and so needed!
This disease leaves you totally at the mercy of God. There is nothing I can do, say, or buy to fix it. Death is inevitable. We don’t know when or how long we have together. It quickly teaches you to live for just the day. But isn’t that really all we each have, is just today. No where can we find that tomorrow is guaranteed or promised us. Our plans, our dreams, our desires can all be shot in one diagnosis, a car wreck, or even an accident.
I think of the future of this journey. All the things God still has to teach and show me. Teaching me how to allow Him to be my total source of strength, my only refuge. Never in my life have I had to fully rely upon God like I am having to now. We have gone through some major hard times in our 31 years of marriage, but nothing holds a candle to this. I can’t change the outcome, and the future is so unknown. All I can do is TOTALLY put all my trust in His plan. Something I am having to learn to do every day.
So, I say all that to show you HOW MUCH your prayers mean to me. Those day’s when I think I just can’t do this anymore; God pulls me through. I can’t imagine what would happen if Christ was not a part of my life and prayers weren’t being sent up on our behalf. Don’t stop praying for us friends and family!! Every prayer is heard and answered; we are proof!